I do not know why i still update my blog when i know nobody reads. Hmm...It doesn't matter if anyone reads or not, i guess. I enjoy reading my own posts. haha. It's like rewriting my destiny. I've been busy so I would only make entries when i feel like it...or rather when i NEED to.

When i'm down i usually would confide in someone. And sometimes I could be misunderstood and things can go quite wrong especially with the opposite gender. Now that im attached, i would pour my innest feelings to him. But i've noticed that pouring everything might lead to bigger bad-feeling. I'm misunderstood most of the time. Like seriously, something is really wrong with the way i expressed myself. I've decided to just c-r-y...I would call him up and...."Can you accompany me? Thnk u." Then i start pouring. Ahh...that is also pouring! Literally;) He would ask what's wrong but i rather not say. Me and words? Bad combination. He would let it go and not bug me for an answer after a few rounds of 'what's wrong'.

However, it's starting to not work on me. I do not feel better after that. For now, keeping to myself seems like a better option. It's very frustrating to not know what's wrong with myself, on top of my own partner.

I just feel like stopping here.

Rabbi yassir wa la tuassir...