August 09, 2010
July 05, 2010
I do not know why i still update my blog when i know nobody reads. Hmm...It doesn't matter if anyone reads or not, i guess. I enjoy reading my own posts. haha. It's like rewriting my destiny. I've been busy so I would only make entries when i feel like it...or rather when i NEED to.
When i'm down i usually would confide in someone. And sometimes I could be misunderstood and things can go quite wrong especially with the opposite gender. Now that im attached, i would pour my innest feelings to him. But i've noticed that pouring everything might lead to bigger bad-feeling. I'm misunderstood most of the time. Like seriously, something is really wrong with the way i expressed myself. I've decided to just c-r-y...I would call him up and...."Can you accompany me? Thnk u." Then i start pouring. Ahh...that is also pouring! Literally;) He would ask what's wrong but i rather not say. Me and words? Bad combination. He would let it go and not bug me for an answer after a few rounds of 'what's wrong'.
However, it's starting to not work on me. I do not feel better after that. For now, keeping to myself seems like a better option. It's very frustrating to not know what's wrong with myself, on top of my own partner.
I just feel like stopping here.
Rabbi yassir wa la tuassir...
When i'm down i usually would confide in someone. And sometimes I could be misunderstood and things can go quite wrong especially with the opposite gender. Now that im attached, i would pour my innest feelings to him. But i've noticed that pouring everything might lead to bigger bad-feeling. I'm misunderstood most of the time. Like seriously, something is really wrong with the way i expressed myself. I've decided to just c-r-y...I would call him up and...."Can you accompany me? Thnk u." Then i start pouring. Ahh...that is also pouring! Literally;) He would ask what's wrong but i rather not say. Me and words? Bad combination. He would let it go and not bug me for an answer after a few rounds of 'what's wrong'.
However, it's starting to not work on me. I do not feel better after that. For now, keeping to myself seems like a better option. It's very frustrating to not know what's wrong with myself, on top of my own partner.
I just feel like stopping here.
Rabbi yassir wa la tuassir...
May 30, 2010
May 01, 2010
Now where do i start...where did it all started really?
Picture this. I have been walking....trying to find a way out. I walked and walked.
The legs getting really bad cramps and when I was about to give up, I saw a back street.
There was a glimpse of light at the end of this street...Is it this street oh Allah? I really wanna go home please...I don't want to be lost again. The light was getting brighter and brighter. This is it, or so I thought. I started walking, making my way into the street. With every step I took, I never felt so right. Slowly, when I'm so near to home, the light started to dim. And now I'm praying....Allah, please don't take away the light..when i'm so near....I've walked so far, please.... hear my cries ;(
Picture this. I have been walking....trying to find a way out. I walked and walked.
The legs getting really bad cramps and when I was about to give up, I saw a back street.
There was a glimpse of light at the end of this street...Is it this street oh Allah? I really wanna go home please...I don't want to be lost again. The light was getting brighter and brighter. This is it, or so I thought. I started walking, making my way into the street. With every step I took, I never felt so right. Slowly, when I'm so near to home, the light started to dim. And now I'm praying....Allah, please don't take away the light..when i'm so near....I've walked so far, please.... hear my cries ;(
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