"And be patient; verily, Allah loses not the reward of the good-doers" (Surah Hud: 115)

2011-12-23T22:34:00.001+08:00

Airmata seorang isteri jgn dipersia.

2011-10-02T21:31:00.001+08:00

You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now, I wish you were here.

-Avril Lavigne

I need your help

2011-07-07T10:16:00.003+08:00

I need your help.

I need your help Allah.

Have mercy on me.

Strengthen my heart.

Bless me with abundance of sabr.

2011-04-23T23:43:00.002+08:00

Kala senja itu tiba
Ku termenung sendirian
Terasa diriku ini jauh dari rahmat Tuhan
Dosa yang aku lakukan
Menerjah ruang fikiran
Masihkah ada untukku keampunan

Allah, aku rindu kepada sesuatu yang pernah ku rasakan dahulu.
Aku rindu, manisnya iman.

2011-03-25T22:15:00.003+08:00

At night
When the stars light up my room
I sit by myself

Talking to the moon
Trying to get to You
In hopes you're on
The other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
Who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away.

Bruno Mars.

2010-11-14T02:05:00.004+08:00

I like this song the moment I heard it. Tahajjud Cinta.

---
Kau datang ketika duka
dan bintang bercahaya
tunjukku ke jalan syurga

Ku haus di tengah laut
lemas mencari tempat berpaut
kirimkan aku kekuatan
serta pedoman di kesesatan

Ku sunyi dalam gembira
perih pedih tanggung derita
sungguh aku bukan wali
yang suci dari hina dan benci

Terlalu lama aku mencuba
terlalu banyak cinta yang kudamba
tiada yang sempurna
hanyalah fana
Tuhan ampuni hambamu

---

The whole world may seem to turn against me, but at least I still have a reason to smile.
Thank you Allah, for the family that you've granted me.

2010-10-26T22:40:00.003+08:00

What Hurts The Most- Rascal Flatts.

Funny how that song brings fond memories.
And I like it to stay that way. The way I choose to believe.

2010-10-03T22:03:00.000+08:00

I better get a grip on myself. TWO months.

2010-09-20T01:21:00.002+08:00

Life seems unbearable.

I've asked for it, and Allah has given it to me.

I'm scared. I do not know what I am in for.

Allah...hear my cries... :(

Buat Renungan...

2010-09-17T22:08:00.006+08:00

Dipetik dari: Ketika Cinta Bertasbih

Azzam: Katanya kau sudah mengikhlaskan Tiara untuk sahabat lamamu. Sekarang menyesal?
Fadhil: Aku kesal pada diriku sendiri bang. Aku belum bisa ikhlas.
Azzam: Kamu pikir setelah ikhlas mendahulukan Zulkifli utk menikahi Tiara, kamu akan mendapatkan pahala? Tidak Fadhil...Mengutamakan orang lain dlm mendekatkan diri kpd Allah atau dalam hal ibadah, itu hukumya makruh. Kalau mengutamakan orang lain untuk selain ibadah, itu justeru sangat dianjurkan.
Fadhil: Loh bang, saya mempersilakan Zulkifli....
Azzam: Kamu fikir nikah bukan ibadah? itu sunnah rasul. Ibadah, Fadhil...seharusnya kamu mendahulukan dirimu. Bukan orang lain.

***

Azzam: Ada apa Dil? Ada masalah?
Fadhil: Aku terima surat dari Tiara. Dia memohon supaya aku menikahi dia sebelum rombongan Zulkifli datang. Bagaimana menurut abang?
Azzam: Dengar baik2 Dil. Jika kau ikuti ajakan Tiara, maka kau bukan lelaki sejati tetapi seorang pecundang, pengkhianat yang tega menikam saudara sendiri. Sekarang bayangkan berapa banyak orang yang sakit hati jika idea gila kamu itu, kamu lakukan.

Cinta sejati itu menyembuhkan Dil. Bukan menyakitkan. Kamu pikir Tiara bisa mengganti sakit hati orang? Enggak Fadhil. Kamu kawal perasaanmu! Sebab Iblis selalu menyuruh manusia melakukan dosa. Ingat sabda Nabi...Haram hukumnya bagi seseorang Muslim melamar di atas lamaran saudaranya sendiri.

Kalau Tiara sudah melakukan akad nikah dengan Zulkifli, bsoknya pasti dia akan lupa dengan mu. Demikian pun kelak, bila kau sudah menikah.

"Tidak ada yang bisa mengusir syahwat atau kesenangan duniawi kecuali rasa takut kepada Allah yang menggetarkan hati dan merasa rindu kepada Allah yang membuat hati kita merana." - Ibnu At-Toilah.

2010-09-10T00:21:00.002+08:00

Sabar itu mudah disebut tetapi susah diturut

Kerana...
Sabar itu seakan kalah bila mengalah
Sabar itu seakan rugi bila menyepi

Kerana...
Sabar itu bukan untuk ditontoni
Sabar itu bukan untuk dirai

Kerana...
Sabar itu duduknya di jiwa yang murni
Sabar itu komunikasi di antara Mu'min dan Ilahi...

2010-08-09T02:27:00.001+08:00

mere words made me feel unloved.

2010-07-05T22:49:00.002+08:00

I do not know why i still update my blog when i know nobody reads. Hmm...It doesn't matter if anyone reads or not, i guess. I enjoy reading my own posts. haha. It's like rewriting my destiny. I've been busy so I would only make entries when i feel like it...or rather when i NEED to.

When i'm down i usually would confide in someone. And sometimes I could be misunderstood and things can go quite wrong especially with the opposite gender. Now that im attached, i would pour my innest feelings to him. But i've noticed that pouring everything might lead to bigger bad-feeling. I'm misunderstood most of the time. Like seriously, something is really wrong with the way i expressed myself. I've decided to just c-r-y...I would call him up and...."Can you accompany me? Thnk u." Then i start pouring. Ahh...that is also pouring! Literally;) He would ask what's wrong but i rather not say. Me and words? Bad combination. He would let it go and not bug me for an answer after a few rounds of 'what's wrong'.

However, it's starting to not work on me. I do not feel better after that. For now, keeping to myself seems like a better option. It's very frustrating to not know what's wrong with myself, on top of my own partner.

I just feel like stopping here.

Rabbi yassir wa la tuassir...

01 March 07

2010-05-30T19:22:00.002+08:00

Can't believe I came up with such writing(=
Everything happens for a reason. Everything.

2010-05-01T23:59:00.002+08:00

Now where do i start...where did it all started really?
Picture this. I have been walking....trying to find a way out. I walked and walked.
The legs getting really bad cramps and when I was about to give up, I saw a back street.
There was a glimpse of light at the end of this street...Is it this street oh Allah? I really wanna go home please...I don't want to be lost again. The light was getting brighter and brighter. This is it, or so I thought. I started walking, making my way into the street. With every step I took, I never felt so right. Slowly, when I'm so near to home, the light started to dim. And now I'm praying....Allah, please don't take away the light..when i'm so near....I've walked so far, please.... hear my cries ;(

2010-03-28T12:31:00.001+08:00

keep me sane. i miss you.

2010-03-07T21:28:00.000+08:00

a series of unfortunate events.

SILENCE is louder than words.

Caillat

2010-02-21T11:39:00.002+08:00

Didnt i, didnt I tell you.
But I can't spell it out for you.
No, it's never gonna be that simple.
No, I can't spell it out for you.

2010-01-30T12:31:00.002+08:00

Photography...
Nupro, PhotoG.Nic, Pixelwave, Lephotographe, Dshootz...
Unnecessary fight. (-_-)

Pilihan

2010-01-19T21:34:00.002+08:00

"Pilihan manusia selalu didasarkan pada pertimbangan logik, munasabah dan hati, kerana memang itu yang dimiliki kebanyakan manusia. Tapi, ada pilihan yang melampaui itu semua. Pilihan Tuhan, pilihan Allah.....yang menentukan hal ini adalah keyakinan yang kuat dan keihklasan yang lembut. Allah menunjukkan kamu kepadanya dalam setiap permintaannya akan jodohnya." - Hadi S. Khuli

2010-01-10T11:54:00.002+08:00

Maher Zain's Insya Allah

Everytime you fee like you cannot go on
You feel so lost
And that your so alone
All you see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can't see which way to go
Don't despair and never lose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side
Insya Allah...You'll find your way

Everytime you make one more mistake
You feel you can't repent
And that it's way too late
You're so confused, wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of SHAME

Turn to Allah
He's never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray
Ya Allah, guide my steps don't let me go astray
You're the only one that showed me the way
Insya Allah we'll find the way.

2010-01-02T21:40:00.002+08:00

The happiness of the son of Adam depends on his being content with what Allah has decreed for him, and the misery of the son of Adam results from his failure to pray istikharah, and the misery of the son of Adam results from his discontent with what Allah has decreed for him.

"Oh Allah, I ask guidance from Your knowledge, and Power from Your Might and i ask for Your great blessings. You are capable and I am not. You know and I do not and You know the unseen. Oh Allah, if You know that this thing is good for my deen and my subsistence and for my Hereafter, then ordain it for me and make it easy for me to obtain, and then bless me in it. If You know that this thing is harmful to me in my deen and subsistence and in the Hereafter, then keep it away from me, and keep me away from it. And ordain for me whatever is good for me, and make me satisfied with it."

Ameen ya Rab.

2009-12-19T01:08:00.002+08:00

Reflect...Reflect...Reflect....

2009-12-14T23:06:00.002+08:00

im very FLAWED. capital F.
Any takers?

I love this song, Hafiz. Thank you.

"Cinta Terakhir" - Aiman

Mungkin kan terputus di tengah jalan
Mungkin kan terlerai tanpa ikatan
Usah ragu dengan takdir

Mungkin kita kan berbeza haluan
Berakhirnya cerita percintaan
Segalanya ketentuan Tuhan

2009-11-16T02:47:00.002+08:00

Your love so great that it hurts too much.
And I have no time to heal before I break again.
It's only a matter of time...and fate.

2009-11-06T11:11:00.001+08:00

am just hurt.

2009-10-30T16:32:00.002+08:00

Bagai pelangi petang,

Menerangi kegelapan,

Namun,

Hadirnya hanya sebentar.

2009-10-17T14:01:00.000+08:00

Ent laisa lee.

2009-09-25T10:59:00.002+08:00

I hate it.

I hate it when you are angry at me.
I hate it when you went into silence.
I hate it when you say 'I dunno'.
I hate it when you say 'I want to sleep'.
I hate it when you use sarcasm.
I hate it when you're cold.
I hate it when you're mean.
I hate it when you're harsh.

I hate it that I don't hate you.

2009-08-30T23:21:00.002+08:00

I miss that feeling.

The feeling that brought me closer to Him.

Many things I wish I could undo.

It'll take more than a lifetime to amend.

I pray for a figure who would guide me through this temporary life.....for the hereafter.

Im running out of time...

"I swear by the time,

Most surely man is in loss,

Except those who believe and do good, and enjoin on each other truth, and enjoin on each other patience."

(Surah Al-Asr)

2009-08-17T01:04:00.000+08:00

weary and drained.

2009-08-10T18:33:00.003+08:00

يَا أَيَّتُهَا النَّفْسُ الْمُطْمَئِنَّةُ

ارْجِعِي إِلَىٰ رَبِّكِ رَاضِيَةً مَّرْضِيَّةً

فَادْخُلِي فِي عِبَادِي

وَادْخُلِي جَنَّتِي

2009-07-31T16:38:00.003+08:00

Jordin Sparks explains best...

One word turns into a war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down?
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?

Can't swallow our pride
Neither of us wanna raise that flag
If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose
What we had...

2009-07-26T18:44:00.002+08:00

What if...
My existence is temporary...
What if...
Im around coz He wants you back on track...
And when everything seems to fall beautifully in place...
If...
If He has already decided...
There is no other reason to stay...

2009-07-18T01:09:00.001+08:00

complicated sgt lah hidup ni.

2009-07-10T16:51:00.000+08:00

2009-07-06T22:24:00.002+08:00

Words can be painful sometimes.
Especially from a person u treasure.
Or perhaps the heart easily bleeds.

2009-06-22T17:19:00.002+08:00

sejak lama aku berdiri
dalam sepinya rongga hati
tak satu pun burung mampu menjawab
hanya padaMu ku bertanya
lewat setiap sujudku ini
siapakah nanti
cinta untukku

wahai penilai hati lihat batinku
nyaris bernanah kerna luka tersayat
merana menantikan cinta dan kasih hidupku
rahasia itu hanya Kau yang tahu
namun aku tak mau jadi tuna cinta
tuntun hatiku dalam sabar menanti jodohku

rahasia itu hanya Kau yang tahu
namun aku tak mau jadi tuna cinta
namun harus ku ikhlaskan nasib cintaku padaMu

2009-06-22T13:57:00.001+08:00

I feel like giving it up. everything.

2009-06-22T13:52:00.003+08:00

"I tak nak jumpe you. Tkde mood."

You could at least be sensitive about it.

2009-05-21T18:37:00.002+08:00

Never I imagined that getting close to the D-a-y feel this way.
Thought it'd be all rosy...
I've astrayed too far.
Hope He still want to hear me...even from afar.
Oh Allah.

2009-02-24T00:09:00.000+08:00

Except those who repent and amend and make manifest (the truth), these it is to whom I turn (mercifully); and I am the Oft-returning (to mercy), the Merciful. (al-baqarah: 160)

Except those who repent after that and amend, then surely Allah is Forgiving, Merciful. (al-imran: 86)

And as for the two who are guilty of indecency from among you, give them both a punishment; then if they repent and amend, turn aside from them; surely Allah is Oft-returning (to mercy), the Merciful. (An-Nisa’: 16)

Except those who repent before you have them in your power; so know that Allah is Forgiving, Merciful. (al-maidah: 34)

And (as to) those who do evil deeds, then repent after that and believe, your Lord after that is most surely Forgiving, Merciful. (al-a’raf: 153)

2009-02-08T12:51:00.000+08:00

time...
i need time...
im leaving everything to Him.

2009-02-02T13:01:00.002+08:00

maybe...
maybe if you try to listen, u'd understand.
maybe if you try to look into the reason why it happened, u'd understand.
maybe if you know...
just maybe.

2009-01-18T13:40:00.002+08:00

Dan demikianlah semuanya harus terjadi
Kerna memang harus terjadi
Hidup ini terus berlanjut
Kita semua pun pernah merasakan dikhianati dan mengkhianati
Setia dan tidak setia
Kita semua pernah merasakan cinta
Yang membawa kita ke tempat tertinggi
Kita lalu merasakan yang namanya terjatuh
Kerna kesalahan kita sendiri
Kita tidak mati
Tetapi lukanya membuat kita tidak dapat berjalan seperti dulu lagi.

2009-01-04T19:16:00.002+08:00

"Fighting is enjoined on you, and it is an object of dislike to you; and it may be that you dislike a thing while it is good for you, and it may be that you love a thing while it is evil for you, and Allah knows, while you do not know." -alBaqarah: 216

Never feel so scared and sad as much as how i'm feeling now.
oh Allah.

2008-12-22T19:26:00.002+08:00

I know you care.
I know you would not want to see me hurt.
But dear, I am hurting.
To be happy for me is all I asked of you.
For I have found my happiness in him.

2008-12-09T13:23:00.002+08:00

my heart yearns to be with this lady i know...
whose heart is pure and white as snow...
with skin so smooth it felt like silk...
whose voice so melodic i'll never get sick...
whose heart i hope that i could win...
as my wife i pray to god for her to be...
(...) is the name of she...

8.12.2008
1958hrs

2008-12-02T12:56:00.001+08:00

when all you want is His blessings.

faith. istiqamah.

18:74

2008-11-03T22:42:00.002+08:00

"Wahai orang yang lembut hatinya...
Aku tak ada siapapun kecuali ALLAH di hatiku...
Aku ingin menjadi yang halal bagimu...
Yang kan kau kecup keningnya..."

Ayat-Ayat Cinta.

Blessed Broken Road

2008-10-24T16:17:00.002+08:00

"I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
but you just smile and take my hand
You've been there, you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true"

2008-10-20T00:58:00.000+08:00

...says: for he only test those who he believes can... and he only test to the limit he believes we can
for be thankful.. that you were chosen.

Thank you.

pictures at random

2008-10-04T00:43:00.001+08:00

Kasihku Abadi

2008-09-28T13:44:00.002+08:00

Kamar hatiku, sekian lama
Suram dan sepi, kekosongan
Aku mencari insan sejati
Untuk menemani hidupku

Adam dan Hawa diciptakanNya
Disemai rasa kasih sayang
Agar bersemi ketenangan
Dan kedamaian di hati

....

Moga impian kan dirahmati
Dipertemukan serikandi
Susah dan senang sama harungi
Demi cinta yang hakiki

2008-09-25T16:00:00.002+08:00

"And make the Glorious Quran, O God, the light of our hearts, the clarity of our eyes, the remedy for our illnesses, the atonement of our sins, and our savior from the Fire, O Lord of Majesty and Honor."

2008-09-24T23:44:00.002+08:00

Oh Allah, help me.

2008-09-09T22:50:00.000+08:00

O Allah, I shelter behind you from all deeds that will displease you. O Allah, I ask for the most essential, the most clean, and the honor You bestow. O Allah, do not make me so busy that I fall into the forgetfulness of those who forget You. May I be worthy of Your approval. O Allah, make me a servant remembered only for loving You, hoping for nothing from his worship! O Allah, fill my heart with joy from You, purify my tongue with Your Names, let my limbs labor on tasks You will find good and of which You will approve. O Allah, eliminate all traces, memories, recollections, and feelings that are not of You!

Junayd al-Bagdadi

2008-08-29T16:57:00.001+08:00

Yesterday I dreamt of being in Mesir.
"Eh, kenape aku pegi Mesir lagi eh?"
Not that I don't want a second trip.
How can I forget.
Mount Sinai. The Sunrise.
The great closeness I felt to our Creator.
The Nile. Felluca.
The train back from Luxor.
The rain in Alexandria.
Asyir Mangga.
The Ayat-Ayat Cinta joke.
"Mana tau, balik nanti, jumpa Fahri kat Airport."
And...the flight back home.
Someone promised to bring me to Mesir one day.
Maybe to the pyramids, the Mediterranean sea...
I guess there were too many promises.
Too many to fulfill.

2008-08-04T15:28:00.000+08:00

2008-07-20T23:31:00.002+08:00

has always been a big sister to me

and he has always been the one and only Syed Hamizan Shah

2008-07-17T23:25:00.002+08:00

"Lagi sikit lagi Khairun...Sikit aje lagi. Sabar k."

Inilah salah satu cara untuk memujuk diri setelah berjam-jam mark buku/worksheets. Kadang-kadang tu bosan jugak. Rasa macam nak tolak tepi semua kerja, pastu lari pergi holiday. Heh. Tetapi insya Allah tak jadi irresponsible begitu sekali kott.
Working in school has been interesting. Really interesting. Dalam sekelip mata, saya sudah mempunyai tidak kurang daripada 96 anak. Anak murid. Dari umur 6 tahun hingga 10 tahun. Dan setiap daripada mereka, mempunyai perangai dan ragam yang bermaaacam-macam!

Selain dari kerja yang tak abis-abis tu, life itself is erm tough. Bila pulak hidup ni senang kan? Kalau nak jadi antara hamba-hamba Allah yang disayangiNya mestilah mengharungi onak dan duri kehidupan. Sedangkan kekasih Allah diuji dengan pelbagai kesukaran. Ini apalagi kita, ummatnya yang selalu sangat lupa. Leka. Adakalanya rasa tak dapat tanggung lagi dugaan yang diberi. Lepas tu, rasa diri ni menanggung semuanya sendiri.

Itu bila tengah overloaded with so many things lah. But when my head is leveled, I remind myself that there is always someone whom I can turn to and He.... well, He never fails to listen.

Allah oh Allah,
Ya Mujib...Ajib Dua'ana..

"And why should we not put our trust in Allah while He indeed has guided us our ways. And we shall certainly bear with patience all the hurt you may cause us, and in Allah (Alone) let those who trust, put their trust." (Surah Ibrahim: 12)

2008-07-13T02:09:00.001+08:00

I thank Allah our path crossed.

2008-07-10T21:25:00.002+08:00

A piece of reminder I would like to share.
For you and esp for myself.

Bila Allah cepat makbulkan Doamu, Maka DIA menyayangimu,
Bila DIA Lambat Makbulkan doamu, Maka DIA Ingin mengujimu,
Bila DIA Tidak Makbulkan Doamu, maka Dia merancang sesuatu yang lebih baik untukmu.
Oleh itu, sentiasalah bersangka baik Pada ALLAH Dalam Apa Jua Keadaan Pun...

Kerana Kasih sayang ALLAH itu Mendahului KemurkaanNya.

For the person who shared this, thank u (=

2008-07-07T01:41:00.003+08:00

Mr Syed Hamizan Shah, i'll c you tmr insya Allah! kejam-kelip, kejam-kelip Mizan dah besar...jgn cepat sgt besar, can? hehe.

2008-07-05T23:35:00.003+08:00

"Anak Umi comel, sopan santun, pandai berhujah pula tuh. Siapalah yang tak berkenan."

"Dah mulalah umi tu. Kata nak suruh Mai jaga kilang?"

"Kilang Umi tak risau sgt. Siapa-siapa pun boleh jaga. Mai tu kalau Umi dah takda nanti siapa nak jaga?"

"Tuhan." balasnya perlahan.

Salju Sakinah - Zaid Akhtar

Padat tetapi sendat dengan makna yang tersirat (=

2008-06-29T12:36:00.002+08:00

Rasa dah lama tak qyam ramai-ramai. I had one at Masjid Mydin just now. Rindu pulak suasana Ramadhan. I can't wait for Ramadhan to come. Mudah-mudahan Ramadhan tahun ini akan lebih bermakna berbanding dengan Ramadhan-Ramadhan yang lepas. Nonetheless, each and every Ramadhan has its on 'ni'mah'.

Anw, while i was driving home from Masjid Mydin, I was listening to Mengemis Kasih by Nazrey Johan (feat Far East)...there's something about this song.

It's what i called a taste of kemanisan iman.

Tuhan dulu pernah aku menagih simpati
Kepada manusia yang alpa juga buta
Lalu terheretlah aku dilorong gelisah
Luka hati yang berdarah
Kini jadi parah

Semalam sudah sampai ke penghujungnya
Kisah seribu duka ku harap sudah berlalu
Tak ingin lagi ku ulangi kembali
Gerak dosa yang menghiris hati.

"Rabbana zholamna anfusana
Wa in lam taghfirlana watarhamna
Lanakunanna minal khasireen."

Bumi Kinanah

2008-06-22T00:08:00.005+08:00

Bumi Kinanah

*I was that close. oh well.*

2008-06-15T02:07:00.005+08:00

Misr taught me independence.
It also brought me hope.
It flatters my heart.
Thank you Allah. (=

2008-06-03T17:02:00.000+08:00

2008-06-03T01:06:00.008+08:00

Doa for a safe trip for us 2 girls. (=

2008-05-23T01:06:00.003+08:00

So you've witnessed the emotional side of me through my recent entries.
That's what you get when I am spiritually at my lowest of low.
Of course there'll come a time to stand tall. Rise high.
And to tell myself,
"DO MEN THINK that on their [mere] saying, "We have attained to faith", they will be left to themselves, and will not be put to a test?"
[al-Ankabut 2-3]
Wipe those tears, put up the best smile.
I am looking forward to new school. New pupils. New responsibilities.

2008-05-13T23:42:00.002+08:00

and this is for my girlfriends.

Untukmu Bakal 'Imam'ku yang tiada siapa mengenali termasuklah diri ini, dirimu masih rahsia penciptamu..rahsia yang telah ditentukan untukku, yang perlu kusingkap dengan segunung taubat dan sepenuh sungguhan sujudku, cuma jambatan istikharah jua yang bisa merungkai rahsiaku ini....

Ketahuilah wahai mujahidku,Ketahui namamu tidak menjadi idamanku, apa lagi untuk menatap wajahmu, Menggeletar diri ini apabila terfikirkan azab Allah, justeru diri ini amat bersyukur kerana masih tidak di takdirkan sebarang pertemuan sedar antara kita, ku bimbang andai terjadi pertemuan itu sebelum lafaz akad darimu, sungguh kita menempah siksaan Allah. Ya Tuhan kami lindungi kami..

Biar bertahun lama yang ku tunggu bukan dirimu tetapi yang ku tunggu adalah lafaz akad yang akan membimbing diri ini ke Jannah Allah.Apalah ertinya perasaan kasih yang bersemi untukmu suamiku andai maharnya bukan kemampuanmu untuk mendidikku menjadi mujahidah yang mencintai DIA lebih dari segala...

2008-05-01T20:56:00.005+08:00

Andai kuhampar lautan di hadapanmu,

kau tak bisa berhenti,

Andai kubina tembok menghalangmu,
kau tetap pergi,
Biar luka tekakku memanggilmu,
kau takkan jua kembali,
Aku tak bisa berbuat sesuatu,
kau milik Ilahi,
Kupujuk diri sekadar termampu,
menerima kehilangan ini,
Moga,
hilangmu,

hilang berganti.

2008-04-26T23:56:00.003+08:00

Tolong sampaikan pada si dia…
Tolong beritahu si dia, aku ada pesanan buatnya..
Tolong beritahu si dia, cinta agung adalah cintaNya..
Tolong beritahu si dia, cinta manusia bakal membuatnya alpa..

Tolong nasihati sia dia, jangan menyintaiku lebih dari dia menyintai Yang Maha Esa..
Tolong nasihati si dia, jangan mengingatiku lebih dari dia mengingati Yang Maha Kuasa..
Tolong nasihati si dia, jangan mendoakanku lebih dari dia mendoakan ibu bapanya..

Tolong katakan pada si dia, dahulukan Allah kerana di situ ada syurga..
Tolong katakan pada si dia, dahulukan ibu bapanya kerana di telapak itu syurganya..

Tolong ingatkan si dia. Aku terpikat kerana imannya bukan rupa..
Tolong ingatkan si dia. Aku lebih cintakan zuhudnya bukan harta..
Tolong ingatkan si dia. Aku kasihinya kerana santunnya..

Tolong tegur si dia, bila dia mula mengagungkan cinta manusia..
Tolong tegur si dia, bila dia tenggelam dalam angan-angannya..
Tolong tegur si dia, andai nafsu mengawal fikirannya..

Tolong sedarkan si dia. Aku milik Yang Maha Esa..
Tolong sedarkan si dia. Aku masih milik keluarga..
Tolong sedarkan si dia. Tanggungjawabnya besar kepada keluarganya..

Tolong sabarkan si dia, usah ucap cinta di kala cita-cita belum terlaksana..
Tolong sabarkan si dia, andai diri ini enggan dirapati kerana menjaga batasan cinta..
Tolong sabarkan si dia, bila jarak mejadi penyebab bertambah rindunya..

Tolong pesan padanya. Aku tidak mahu menjadi fitnah besar kepadanya..
Tolong pesan padanya. Aku tak mahu menjadi punca kegagalannya..
Tolong pesan padanya. Aku membiarkan Yang Esa menjaga dirinya..

Tolong khabarkan pada si dia. Aku tidak mahu melekakan dia..
Tolong khabarkan pada si dia. Aku mahu dia berjaya dalam impian dan cita-citanya..
Tolong khabarkan pada si dia. Jadilah penyokong dalam kejayaanku..

Tolong sampaikan pada si dia, aku mendambakan cinta suci yang terjaga..
Tolong sampaikan pada si dia, cinta kerana Allah tidak ternilai harganya..
Tolong sampaikan pada si dia, hubungan ini terjaga selagi dia menjaga hubungan dengan Yang Maha Kuasa..
Tolong sampaikan kepada si dia kerana aku tidak mampu memberitahunya sendiri…

Hanya engkau Ya Allah mengetahui siapa si dia..
Moga pesananku sampai padanya walau aku sendiri tidak mengetahui siapa dan dimana si dia..
Moga dia seekor lebah yang sentiasa memuji keagungan Yang Maha Kuasa memasuki taman larangan dengan sopan santunnya dan bertemu mawar berduri yang terjaga oleh tuannya..
Simpanlah pesanan ku ini sehingga engkau bertemu diriku suatu hari nanti…

-Fatimah Syarha

2008-04-25T19:18:00.001+08:00

a change of mind. and heart.
I've decided to stay. (=

2008-03-29T23:24:00.002+08:00

I'm moving out from here soon. U may pm me if you would like to know my new address (=

2008-03-21T10:38:00.000+08:00

it'll all get better in time.
insya Allah.

2008-03-17T14:16:00.004+08:00

Why am I being tested?
DO MEN THINK that on their [mere] saying, "We have attained to faith", they will be left to themselves, and will not be put to a test? Yea, indeed, We did test those who lived before them; and so, [too, shall be tested the people now living: and] most certainly will God mark out those who prove themselves true, and most certainly will He mark out those who are lying.
- Surah Al-Ankabut : 2-3

Why I do not acquire my heart desires ?
".. Even though it be hateful to you; but it may well be that you hate a thing the while it is good for you, and it may well be that you love a thing the while it is bad for you: and God knows, whereas you do not know. ."
- Surah Al-Baqarah : 216

Why THIS test ?
"God does not burden any human being with more than he is well able to bear:"
- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286

Frustrated?
"Be not, then, faint of heart, and grieve not: for you are bound to rise high if you are [truly] believers.." - Surah Al-Imran ayat 139

Overcome tests?
"O you who have attained to faith! Be patient in adversity, and vie in patience with one another, and be ever ready [to do what is right], and remain conscious of God, so that you might attain to a happy state! "- Surah Al-Imran : 200
"And seek aid in steadfast patience and prayer: and this, indeed, is a hard thing for all but the humble in spirit" - Surah Al-Baqarah : 45

What will I be rewarded?
"BEHOLD, God has bought of the believers their lives and their possessions, promising them paradise in return, ,[and so] they fight in God's cause.." - Surah At-Taubah ayat 111

To whom shall I submit ?
"..In Him have I placed my trust, for He is the Sustainer, in awesome almightiness enthroned." - Surah At-Taubah :129

I can't take it anymore!!!
"...and do not lose hope of God's life-giving mercy: verily, NONE but people who deny the truth can ever lose hope of God's life-giving mercy..." - Surah Yusuf :87

from Khairunnisa'

2008-03-14T01:17:00.003+08:00

Despite everything, his laughter and smiles are irresistibly contagious!

2008-03-11T22:37:00.002+08:00

Charming, isn't he?

Syed Hamizan Shah(=

2008-03-07T23:09:00.002+08:00

you know, we're slipping away.

on the other hand, coincidence now, has a deeper meaning.

2008-02-17T21:45:00.000+08:00

O My Lord,

My sins are like The highest mountain;

My good deeds Are very few

They're like a small pebble.

I turn to You My heart full of shame,

My eyes full of tears.

Bestow Your Forgiveness and Mercy Upon me.

Ya Allah,

Send your peace and blessings On the Final Prophet,

And his family,

And companions,

And those who follow him.

2008-02-06T10:07:00.000+08:00

Thank you Allah for the friends that you have blessed me with.

Let's go krabi-ing girlfriends! (;

ya Lateef, ultuf bina...

2008-02-03T14:54:00.000+08:00

2008-01-27T21:48:00.000+08:00

I find this Anuar Zain's song interesting. Ironic really. But anyone who has experienced falling in love is guilty of it.
besar cintaku tak berubah.
walau kini rasa itu luluhkan hatimu.
ku hanya milikmu.
meski kau tinggalkan.
masih ku milikmu.
(it goes on...bla..bla..)
cinta ini takkan pernah pudar.
selain untukmu.
In time, many of us would look back and can't help but to smile. Amused.
Bodo? Very. Oh well, it was a bitter-sweet feeling.
Ironic, yes?

Sayyidina Muhammad

2008-01-21T22:33:00.000+08:00

His house was but a hut with walls of unbaked clay and a thatched roof of palm leaves covered by camel skin. He had separate apartments for his wives, a small room for each made of similar materials. His own apartment contained a rope cot, a pillow stuffed with palm leaves , the skin of some animal spread on the floor and a water bag of leather and some weapons. These were all his earthly belongings, besides a camel, a horse, and an ass and some land which he had aquired in the later part of his life (Bukhari, Muslim, Abu Dawud). Once a few of his disciples, noticing the imprint of his mattress on his body, wished to give him a softer bed but he politely declined the offer saying,

"What have I to do with worldly things. My connection with the world is like that of a traveler resting for a while underneath the shade of a tree and then moving on."

Amr Ibn Al-Harith, a brother in law of the prophet (pbuh), says that when the prophet died, he did not leave a cent, a slave man or woman, or any property except his white mule, his weapons and a piece of land which he had dedicated for the good of the community (Bukhari, Sahih Bukhari).

He advised the people to live simple lives and himself practised great austerities. Even when he had become the virtual king of arabia, he lived an austere life bordering on privation. His wife Aiysha (ra) says that there was hardly a day in his life when he had two square meals (Muslim, Sahih Muslim, Vol.2, pg 198). When he died there was nothing in his house except a few seeds of barley left from a mound of the grain obtained from a Jew by pawning his armour (Bukhari, Sahih Bukhari, Chapter "Aljihad").

2008-01-14T22:48:00.000+08:00

You thought that i've never blogged about you.

For that, this one's for you.

"You are the noor of my eyes, the sultan of my heart."

2008-01-02T23:20:00.000+08:00

Having free time does this to me. It gets me thinking. About....things. Life. Family. Friends. Career. And at this very moment, im still thinking. "Thinking Aloud". Haf you ever heard of that? It's one of the effective ways to know your students. Let them write/speak about anything and everything.

Thinking usually lead me to questions. Sometimes you have questions that you so badly need answers that you wished there's a booklet of answers like those assessment books that comes with answer keys. But of course, you're suppose to figure it out yourself. Now, this is where I realized how beautiful Islam has painted its lines of guidance.

The Prophet (s.a.w) said:
"I am leaving with you two things, and
you will never go astray so long as you adhere to them:
the Book of Allah and the Sunnah of His Messenger"

I spoke to my good friend yesterday. Little that I know, our conversation led me to answers. They were there all along. I was just too blind to see. All it takes is F.A.I.T.H.

"..In Him have I placed my trust, for He is the Sustainer, in awesome almightiness enthroned."
- Surah At-Taubah :129

2007-12-30T20:07:00.000+08:00

Has anyone seen this heartthrob? I forgot to ask for his name ;)

21st - 27th

2007-12-20T21:20:00.000+08:00

2007-12-10T22:43:00.000+08:00

Sampai kapan kau gantung...Cerita cintakuuu...Memberi harapaaan...Hingga mungkin ku tak sanggup lagiee...Dan meninggalkan dirimuuuu...

This song makes me wanna dance. Melly Goeslow.

Im going away for a few days people. Doakan saya selamat pergi dan pulang.
Kak Zaw and Mizan, we go out when I return k?
Promise! (bi'iznillah)

Bengkel Praktikum

2007-12-05T21:33:00.000+08:00

2007-11-27T23:36:00.000+08:00

i loike. (=

http://happyflavour.multiply.com/photos

2007-11-22T14:22:00.000+08:00

ok, short one. like Shahidah said, EXAMS R OVER!
okae perhaps not quite very over for me for the nxt 2 wkends.
Still. Linguistik and Sastera paper are down.down.down.
Hee. mcm tak percaye gitu.

im in holiday mood la...
its time to travel,travel,travel. heh.
am looking forward to walimahs.
engagements, weddings...
its the time of the year, i should say.
Congrats to all, may you have blissful engagement/marriage!~

Sayang,
akan ku terus sabar menanti
hingga tiba masanya
ku berinai di jari...
-Norazela Rosli

2007-11-15T20:47:00.000+08:00

others who broke my heart

they were like Northern stars

pointing me on my way

into your loving arms.

-Rascal Flatts.

2007-11-09T00:51:00.000+08:00

I asked for Strength........

And God gave me Difficulties to make me strong.

I asked for Wisdom........

And God gave me Problems to solve.

I asked for Prosperity........

And God gave me Brain and Brawn to work.

I asked for Courage........

And God gave me Danger to overcome.

I asked for Love........

And God gave me Troubled people to help.

I asked for Favours........

And God gave me Opportunities.

I received nothing I wanted

I received everything I needed

My Prayer has been answered.

2007-10-29T23:42:00.000+08:00

Coincidence (by definition)

a striking occurrence of two or more events at one time apparently by mere chance.

from strangers to co-volunteers to friends.

2007-10-22T16:38:00.000+08:00

Its the time of the year again. Im a bit late lah. Dah brape Syawal eh? *scrambles for Berita Harian*
10th Syawal.

Oh right. 1 test down, 1 more to go, 4 assignments due, exams peeking in....
wateva. I'm still up for jalan raye (x2), forum irama and a quick visit to the bf's new house!
Hamizan cant wait to see youu.

Seems like the fellow NIE-ans not going for jalan raye. Instead we 'raye' in the classroom.

2007-10-16T16:29:00.001+08:00

100th post!
The Best of Friends

In old, worn out shabby looking clothes, Amir Al-Mu’minin, Ali Bin Abi Taleb, sat saying grace to Allah.

Abu Mariam, one of the servants, sat on his knees close to Ali and whispered:
“Amir Al-Mu’minin, I have something to ask of you.”
Ali said: “What is it that you want to ask?”
Abu Mariam said: “That you throw away the clothes you are wearing. They are old and ripped and do not go well with your position.”
Ali Bin Abi Taleb put the tip of his clothes on his eyes and started to cry until his weeping was loud.
In embarrassment, Abu Mariam said: “O Amir Al-Mu’minin, if I knew that it meant so much to you I would not have asked you to take it off.”
Ali said while wiping his tears: “O Abu Mariam, my love for this jacket is increasing. It was a gift from my friend and beloved companion.”
Oddly, Abu Mariam asked: “And who is this friend of yours O Amir?”
Ali said: “ ‘Umar Ibn Al Khattab. He was the best of friends.”

He then started to weep once again until the sound of his suppressed cries could be heard from afar.

Source: Translated from “100 Stories from the Life of Ali Bin Abi Taleb” by Muhammad Sedeeq Al Minshawi, Dar Al Fadeela Publishing, 2002.

2007-10-06T11:43:00.000+08:00

Ramadhan Kareem semuaa~ can't believe it's already the last ten days of Ramadhan. I hope to spend this period of time with qyams. U noe, its funny how I can wake up for qyam in Ramadhan and liyatt sgt to do the same for the rest of the months. Same goes for other ibadah. Solat sunnat qabliah, ba'diah, reciting the quran...etc. In relation to that, there are some people who do the fardhus only in Ramadhan. Thus the label 'Ramadhan Muslim'. Something to ponder on la eh.

“The key to sincerity is Qiyaamul-Layl, because only the sincere wake and stand when others are lying asleep.” [Imam al-Haddad]